well it is the weekend and everything has been going well. its about 10 40 and i am up and that is a miricle. i usally wake up at 11, but this morning when my parents went to church and i was left all alone, still sleeping, benjy started howling! i mean he always doese this, and i ahev no idea why. so i got up and he was just there on the couch crying! nothing was wrong, i guess he was just lonly. so the i went back downstairs with him and let him lay on my bed with me. i tryed falling asllep but i had a big urdge to pee. and since nature was calling, i got up and i used the rest room. big deal, right? well and then i just couldnt sleep. and another thing, since my mom is turning me into a christan i have to go to church almost all the time and it is soo getting on my nerves. i mean i can still be a christan at home right? i dont have to go to church to worship god, right? yeah! so i think they think i am a devil vhild or something. now they are taking me to a theripist because i was deppresed a month ago, and instead of a moth ago when i needed help they are making me get help now! ugh! they just dont get it.
DEAR GOD,
I KNOW THAT MAYBE I HAVENT BEEN THAT GREAT, BUT CAN YOU PLEASE HELP ME GET THROUGH TO MY PARENTS THAT SUICIDE IS NOT THE WAY I AM CHOOSING, AND THAT I AM NOT THE DEVILS CHILD? AND I KNOE THEY THINK THAT I NEED TO GO TO CHURCH 24/7 BUT I THINK THAT I CAN STAY HOME AND STILL WORSHIP YOU. PLEASE HELP THEM SEE.
No comments:
Post a Comment